It is 2016!
So many people and so many resolutions. There are so many things that I could focus on that many times my OCD does not know where to start. Then I become overwhelmed... and then I get anxious and then I snowball.
So this year let it be known that I want to do things differently.
I want to make an effort to spend time with family - whether it be game nights or just sharing a meal... both my husband's family and my family are (mostly) at most a little over an hour away from where we live. As it has been in the past we have not seen them near as much as we should... excuses and excuses of why we dont call or visit... I am conflicted about all of this. I dont want to be one of those families that does not see each other unless it is the exception of a holiday. I am normally a hermit, not wanting to go out to see them, but rather wondering why my family doesn't come to see me. However, I read a book recently (The Noticer by Andy Andrews), that changed my perspective. Why am I focusing on why I am not getting visits from friends and family - when I should be focusing on why I have not been driving to visit my family and my friends... when I changed my perspective on it - I became very blue... I have envied families who have a close bond... who call and text and spend time with one another and it does not even have to be a special occassion. Have I really become this self centered individual who wants to talk only if someone wants to reach out first... who am I to act like that. All about perspective...
I want to take better care of myself. I have taken a couple months off of working out and eating right, and I can feel it. It is time to get back to it. Luckily my sweet friend (who is also my wonderful trainer) has not given up on me and is still willing to help me become a better me. But it is also more than eating better and working out. I need to be proud of who I am. Dress like I am proud of who I am. I no longer work where I have to wear skirts - but that does not mean that I have to look like a bum either. I am now 32 and going to be 33 this year - and while I hate to admit it - I am starting to look like it. I am starting to look my age... Not that I need makeup - but I think that I might have a better confidence if I started to look like I felt better about myself... brush teeth twice a day instead of once... drink more water... take my vitamins.
I want to be more organized. I am an organized person - but I feel like I am getting more and more stressed out. More and more uneasy. I need a better handle on things. Whether I am writing it all down and making to do lists and sticking to them, or having it on my outlook calendar... I have to get it started somewhere. My friend told me about a calendar/planner that she uses and I am thinking of getting because it is color coded and looks like it would be great for me to use. She is a teacher. She has one for work and for home. She is a mom and a wife and a teacher and she has a lot more going on than I do - but I still like her method of doing things...
I am going to continue to explore my creative side. I painted some canvases for Christmas for over my fireplace and it is a very therapeutic and relaxing thing for me. Now I was really rushed to get them done as I had only a couple of weeks to my company Christmas Party that we decided to host... but other than that stress - I had a great time doing them. I am a little crafty - but mostly create off of other people's ideas. I am hoping for more creative and fun things that I can do to decorate my house and make it more meaningful and personal.
To save more... pay off debt (and those are the normal things that come up every year)
So here is to 2016! Raise that protein shake and get moving... 2016 is going to be an amazing year!
This picture was taken this way to get my sweet husband's head and mine to be about the same size... let's face it - I have a head the size of a pea... really its true...
